Roxicodone Addiction: Is Recovery Possible?
Two years ago, I was taking ten to twenty 30mg Roxy’s every day. I couldn’t get up in the morning without a dose, and I would begin to get sick in an hour if I wasn’t taking them around the clock. I kept lines of crushed up pills at my bedside so I could take some in the middle of the night if I woke up. I wasn’t even feeling the high anymore; I needed Roxies just to feel normal.
My addiction started when I was prescribed medication to treat legitimate pain. I had been in several car accidents and I couldn’t sit for long periods of time without shooting pain down my back and legs. I loved the way that Roxicodone made me feel. It took away my pain, gave me energy, and gave the whole world a glowy, happy look.
Over the years, my body became dependent on Roxicodone. I needed more and more just to feel the same way. When I didn’t have it, my pain became so intense that I would cry myself to sleep at night. I would feel nauseous, shaky, and anxious. I used to live and I lived to used. Roxicodone became my whole world; more important to me than my family, my job, and my friends. I didn’t think I would ever be able to live without it.
I had always thought that the key to my Roxicodone recovery was kicking the physical addiction. I thought once my body was no longer craving the drug, I’d be able to stay away. I’d go to detox and maybe a week or two in treatment, and think I was cured. It wouldn’t be long until I was right back to where I started from.
At one point, I even tried Suboxone maintenance. And, although the drug never got me high and it treated my cravings, it was never enough because I was still miserable. Eventually, I’d go off the Suboxone and seek out my drug of choice.
Today, I have been clean and sober for 18 months, so I can tell you that recovery from Roxicodone addiction is absolutely possible. It’s a process, and it’s not easy, but it is definitely worth it.
This time, I listened.
This time, I took suggestions.
This time, I was committed.
This time, I got a sponsor, went to meetings, and worked a 12 step program.
I used to think that having a Roxicodone addiction was the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. I would’ve given anything to not have this disease. Today, I am nothing but grateful for the process. I got a second chance to be a better person, and through that, I have been given a life that is beyond my wildest dreams. I walked in looking for a way to recover from my Roxicodone addiction, and I walked out with so much more. I can tell you all day what a blessing this journey has been, but until you experience it yourself, you won’t truly understand. What I can tell you is that recovery is absolutely possible.